Well, ..it's been a while. The last post was a little scattered I don't know if I even posted it, ...I will have to look. I have regrouped though and found some new insights into possibility. And when I say possibility, I am talking about the choices we make. Choices are like a wish in a sense, when we make them, we set in motion the things that will come to be. Certainly all that comes our way can be looked at as learning experience, but often dealing more than being dealt life has it's way of showing us we are on the right track with out choices.
Intentions are best when they are clear, and on the concise side. Too much in the mix of intentions, ..well, it can become complicated and dysphoric. With too much going on, we are not able to focus on what our "duty" may be. When we can find out our duties inside our own intentions, we make our choice in life. The trick is, of course, that we can always change our choice on a dime, and not just one dime ...but many dimes. It's foolish to believe that for every answer there is only one choice to be the winner, as an option there's always the most appealing and the worst ends. Leading of course to the twist of fate that options, like intentions, are the driving force behind change.
All of us have an innate fate that we will succeed at or not, when we make the proper choice for our individual growth and evolution, we cause change in and towards our fate, even change our fate completely. Why cannot we weave our own lives? The fact is "we can" and "we do" ..all the time.
Some of the unfortunate, and mundane, they are bothered not by any of these ideas. And that is one path one can take, to look forward with tunnel vision and only see the cold matter of the Earth, to feed endlessly into self preservation and in some desperate attempt to have control over people or the ego. I have met and left many people like this, and will again without any doubt.
Im not here to lay judgment, or land accusations of dis-honor. Nor am I charged with any notion of what other people "think" they are doing when they promise friendship, in action or word, and deliver nothing but prejudice and avarice. Those people are happy fools and they will not find there feet in the inner circle of my heart and soul. And when I walk away, I don't look back, there are certain things that are unforgivable in my world of existence. Sometimes I don't know what they are until they happen to me...
Lately, I must admit, there has been considerable less drama. Some by design... it can be so apparent when a cycle ends and a new one begins. One looks around, and they notice the fact/truth of their choices, and there is a knowing/acceptance that sparks ...eventually. And other times ...thing can be so subtle and behind the eyes that one doesn't notice what they don't have anymore, and suddenly "gratitude" is in the place of "wanting" and "despair".
And people say thank you all the time, ...but how many actually feel the gratefulness inside their words. Or realize the power of their own words/actions. Instead of flopping their useless ideas of love on the floor. Who actually stands with their passion? Nobody is perfect, but it's way easier to get into a social engagement when one is operating inside gratitude. People will make you a burden if they aren't inside gratitude/respect. Nobody is going to tell you that but me.
Im not a burden on those that truly love me. It's not a chore to be with me, or around me. It's not a lacking or a missed connection. And Im really okay with that, Im learning more and more as I grow up, that I have been vulnerable for a long time. And also, I have learned, that most will expedite and capitalize on someones vulnerability. Thank you Mom, for raising me not to believe I can live life by this ends.
I may have made mistakes, and I admit to them. These days my burdens, though present, do not hold me to the ground, they enlighten me, and I see things as they always were, but with new perspectives.
I choose the Future. Not the one given to me, but the one I made, the one I wished for. Without any of the strings that the massed and ignorant would snip in a second, and only because they can. I know what counts on the scroll of my life, and I know who matters as well.
If you're reading this and your mind is full of question, then my job is just begun. What will you choose tomorrow for the benefit of the many? What will you do that counts to someone that thinks they are nothing? Maybe that person is you.. if it is, trust me when I say. We must all complete our Great Work eventually, without it we have nothing but death to look forward to. Without the Great Work of our own there is only failure and darkness without life. Good luck. (you'll most certainly need it.)
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