It's so great when one states their purpose or active notion, and that statement grows and comes back to them.
I have had this "friend" for a number of years now (2-3), she's a nice woman most of the time, aging and menopausal at times, and other times an absolute pleasure to ignore. She grew a liking for me straight off the bat, ..Im not sure what attracted her to me, or why I responded so readily at her request to take me out for dinner on occasion to hash over her multiple failed relationships with law enforcement members.
She's straight, and clean, and professional; fairly attractive and drives a nice car....it's green, sporty and a convertible, she drives it so slowly sometimes I want to scream, cause the car is built to move. She has spent hundreds of dollars feeding me steak and pasta, all you can eat sushi, and Indian Buffet. She never said no to any of my requests, but then, I did know what was polite to ask for and what was off limits.
She was always talking about some guy she was seeing or dating or fucking. Sometimes she would talk about men who treated her with zero respect, and other times about how great they were in bed or in conversation. And still, she never settled down with any of them, not even to enjoy for a period. She always held them at a certain distance in my mind; I thought that I was exempt from that until recently.
What happened was she was having a considerable hard time dealing with one of her "toys". She had called me to come see her 4 times in 7 days, ...two of those meeting in one day. Needless to say, for me, this was an abuse of our relationship, and also my time. Granted I was fed and drunk to my satisfaction, but her conversations were getting quite heated, and she had clearly lost control of the situation with one of her boys.
He had visited her, after some period away from her, ..he had blown her mind with the emotion he possessed in the bedroom. Something that made her of course have an emotional reaction of her own. And he had left her with this idea that he was not going to return for a second show (so to speak). This left her feeling quite unstable and unsure what to do next.
Now, let us go back to before the return of this guy. He had lied to her, gave her grief that caused her much upheaval, and then he had dissipated in nothing and was gone. Leaving her abandoned and alone, without any way of contacting him on a regular basis.
I told her in the first place to stay away from this guy, that he was trouble, that she could not trust him. (not unlike i have done before with others) But still, she pursued this man, ...and consequently was hurt. I basically told her that she should have listen to me. I may have lost my temper a bit, but I didn't swear, I just told her she knew what she was getting into when she started. She disagreed.. and I said, I told you he wasn't going to treat you well. I don't know exactly what it was that triggers me to tell her that in the beginning. And she chose to ignore the warning...to her own downfall.
Well, ..after the four meeting in less than 7 days, ..I left dinner.. she wasn't happy, she was hurting. I tried to protect her from it. She messaged me the next day, ...she didn't even have the balls to tell me in person. She had decided I had crossed the line, and not for the first time, and that we could no longer be friends.
OMG...she is lost.
I don't know what your meaning of friendship is, but frankly, buying someone dinner once or twice a month for 2-3 years, and using that person to look good in public, and satisfy some childish game of "look who Im with" does not constitute a friendship. One can be friendly and not be friends is what Im saying...
She dumped me as her friend, but all I am without is a paid meal and a tonne of stress from listening to a child s dirty little secrets all the time. Im not going to say I am not going to miss the "dates". I will say though, that when and if she ever shows up again, ..which I suspect is closer than I am comfortable with, I will plainly just deny her.
There is nothing to be gained from this situation for me. I let it continue because I was being kind and caring, and knew I possessed what she needed to deal. I fear though what she will do without my skills of deduction and intuition in terms with her relationships. It's funny, she may have actually helped me tune my gift a little more so that I am stronger.
This Blog is about New beginnings and casting the old that doesn't serve me away and into the Abyss. Well, ...CatWoman, you just made it into the Abyss. I deny you access into my life any longer, you have no control over me.
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